Guess who? Peek-a- boo, I see you! This is where I get to tell you about myself. I guess the moment that really encouraged me to pursue a career in music was when I was given an opportunity to perform at a beauty pageant in 1978 at the Klein Memorial Auditorium in Connecticut. I was a featured performer. This was my first really big event for me. My Mom did attend this event I was performing at. I was scheduled to only sing one song which was "Welcome To My World." I was also backed up by the orchestra band for my song. When I came out to perform with my guitar, the whole auditorium was pitch black and I couldn't see anyone at all in the audience. I could only see where I was on the stage because of a low light spot light. After I sang the song I heard a huge overwhelming applause. Then the lights went on. What a surprise! I was shocked. The whole auditorium was packed solid with people who stood up and gave me a long loud applause. I was overwhelmed. I'm glad my Mom was there. She was so proud of me.
When I decided to put up my website, I thought it would be nice if I had "Welcome To My World" on my home page welcoming people to my website.
I am the youngest of my two other brothers. See picture below of my brother John singing "Your Cheating Heart" and playing guitar. Johnny Cash use to sound a lot like my brother John.
My Mom was the best Mom ever. See picture below of me (Joe) my Mom and my brother Steve on the right.
We all had a very difficult time through the years. My Mom brought us up alone on her own because she was physically abused by some "thing" that was supposed to be a man and had to leave "it" for our safety and hers. If you notice I didn't designate this "thing" as a man because "it" wasn't. Never met "it", never wanted to. Anyway my Mom raised us on her own and did a great job. My Mom did have brothers and sisters who were married and doing very well in their homes but never reached out to help their own sister (my Mom). This upset me and affected me so much I even wrote a song about them called, "We Got By". My Mom and my two brothers have since passed on. I am currently working on a book about my journey through life. There were a lot of hard times and good times.
Getting on with my story... music has always been a part of me. I could never really be "me" without music in my life. For me, without music, I would just be going through life "empty." Songs I heard and have written, weren't just songs. They had special meaning to me. Songs I wrote and Iistened to were singing to me about my life's ups and downs. I started my musical career at the age of 11 years old in the 60’s when I was inspired by groups from the 50’s to the Beatles and Elvis.There were so many bands I have had through the years and events I have performed at that I am only mentioning some of them and photos that I have performed at. Everything I have done with my music was important to me but this could end up being too much to talk about. The first band I ever formed was called "The Spades". I've tried for many years to try to get someone to help me with my musical career and listen to some of the songs I've written with no success. The record companies I sent my material to didn't even want to be bothered. Later I bumped into an older man named Harold. He told me, "Joe, it's not what you know... it's who you know." Harold went to a lot of concerts where country artists were performing and had a backstage press pass to interview and photograph the artists. He use to bring me along on a lot of these events. I remember meeting the below National Recording Artists. See pictures below of Johnny Cash's brother Tommy Cash, Penny DeHaven and Dick Curless who was nice enough to let me go up on stage and perform a song.
A lot of the songs I have written, I wrote in my van. See picture below taken in 1980. Notice I had plenty of coffee and donuts and was comfy.
I use to drive down to the park. See park entrance photo taken below in 1980 on a night I was going there to write.
I had a particular area that was always "my spot" by the water. I use to spend a lot of time there writing my songs. I really enjoyed working on my songs there on days and nights that were windy, rainy, stormy, even snowy days. That was the best relaxing time for me to write and think. I usually was the only one there. Sometimes I still go down there and I would feel right at home. Unfortunately my van is gone.
See pictures of "my spot below".
I recently obtained a film copy from a TV producer friend of mine from their Backstage Archives of a 1979 TV performance I did on “Backstage” before I went into the studio for the very first time to record two of my original songs I wrote, Love’s Little Heartaches and It Can Happen Anytime Of The Day. Other original songs I performed included in this performance are: Someone Special, The Ways Of Love, Love Blues and Love’s Little Heartaches. This performance only was of me singing and playing guitar and was made prior to me forming my band. Care was taken to reproduce this performance as best possible at this time. There is a short 3 second visual drop out during my interview that cannot be recovered but all the audio is still heard. The rest of the performance is all intact. Can be found on my videos page.
One of my early songs I wrote in 1976 was about the games the typical boyfriend/girlfriend couple play on each when a problem comes up in their relationship that they are willing to play on each other right to the very end of their relationship. I was aware of these games when they were happening in my relationships and would not play them. The song is on my "Original Songs Downloads" page and is called "Life Must Go On" which is about the "life" in your relationship.
I've been getting a lot of emails about how I go about writing my songs and where the ideas of my lyrics come from and how long it takes me to write a song especially from people who are just starting to write songs. There are many ways the idea of a song comes to me. Usually it's about a memory or experience I had and involves a lot of and feelings and sometimes my song would start to come to me by my mood which would trigger a certain way I play a chord and then my song would start to evolve from there. Best thing I do is I find a place where I can think freely with no pressure. You can see "my spot" with the above pictures and then just start thinking about things and start strumming some chords. You'll be amazed at what starts to develop. I would find the main idea or sound of my song and then it starts to develop with more words and chords as I continue playing. I have sometimes written a song in a day. For "me", the best way I could actually show you where "my" songs have come from is with the following...
My Mom told me that I was "pure" (true and honest) and when I was born that I was born with a "veil" . My Mom made a point of making sure that I was aware of this. She gave me a very old news article that she saved for me for many years about people that were born with a veil. See part of article below. Maybe this has also influenced my music and the way I write my songs.
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Time marches on, the wind blows on...
It was very easy for me to continue and get on with my life and music career that I had started out doing years ago once all the extreme stress I had years ago that caused me to be so upset and confused and lose direction of my life was gone. It was a good feeling to be myself again and
I was back and on track!
I ended up moving and quitting my full time job and became a full time free lancing musician making "a lot" more money writing jingles for commercials and doing studio work and collaborating with other songwriters than I ever did working at my old job. I also had a Christian radio program ministry that I also produced
and I have written about 12 Christian gospel songs. I have posted two of them on my "Free Original Songs Downloads" at the top of the page along with the original copies of these songs and chords I wrote down at that time. One is called, “ I Am Your Child”, which is a Pro-Life song about a baby in the mother’s womb talking to the mother. The other song is about Adam speaking to Eve and is called,
“ Adam Say Eve".
1994 was my "My Official Comeback Rock & Roll year". "Goodbye Yellow Brick Road" and "Hello Marylou". "I'm Still Standing" and it's time to Rock & Roll again!
I started another band which I continued to call Joe Neumann & the Tornadoes that I later changed to Joe Neumann & the Big Beat which has gone through many changes through the years but I always had my good friend Bucky performing with me playing drums and singing harmony. One of the nicest concerts I had the pleasure to perform at was with Bill Haley’s Comets in Fishkill, New York. The drummer is now in charge of the band because Bill Haley passed away. I also had an audition for "America's Got Talent", and met with Simon Cowell who introduced me to a recording executive and I gave him a copy of my original songs on CD. I was contacted by him in 2017 and have met with him at a recording studio in New York to lay down some studio recordings of some of my songs. We made really good recordings. He took copies of the recordings with him and said he will be in touch. The good thing about this is that my songs are copyrighted and I retain ownership and authorship of my song compositions.
I got a call from the New York studio again to work on commercial jingles.
I was told that I have a unique way of writing lyrics and music.
I like to perform mostly close by home and am also currently performing at various town summer concerts throughout the state and New York area with my 50's & 60's oldies band Joe Neumann and The Big Beat. My boys are also performing with me. Joseph solos and plays trumpet and joins in with the playing and Patrick also solos and plays tenor saxophone and joins in with the playing. See photos below.
I’m very proud of them. They both attend College full time. Joseph is an Honors Student and is Majoring in Physics and Math. Patrick is an Honors Student and is Majoring in Marine Biology and Psychology. I wouldn’t have missed having kids for the world. They have "always" come first in my life. The worst person in the world is a "deadbeat dad". They run away and only take good care of themselves.
I am working on a compilation album of all my songs and have written over 80 songs. I have been recording and producing my songs myself at my home studio.
The newest song I have written is called "Rockin' Little Mama". This song describes the "typical 50's looking and dancing gal" that is ready to roll and is a type of swing song with a touch of Jerry Lee Lewis and
rock-a-billy added. I have been playing "Rockin' Little Mama" at all our concerts. I currently have a few of my original songs available to share with you "FREE" on my album for downloading when you click on "Free Original Songs Downloads" at the top of the page along with the original copies of these songs & chords I wrote down at that time. More songs to come.
2018 has been a real rockin' year! Besides my solo performances we had a lot of concert dates for my full band.
If there is a song you would like us to play for you , email me and I'll do my best to play it. You can email me at: email@example.com
A couple of my song commercial jingles that I have written and recorded for a couple companies during one of my visits to the New York studio have been aired on TV and radio. I can't mention what they are or too much about these commercial jingles because I signed a work for hire agreement with them. I also was introduced to Brian Setzer who happened to be there recording in one of their studios.
I've been playing a long time now. Nothings has changed with me through the years. I never really did pay attention to time very much as it was going by. I play better and sing better. I'm a little older now but still charming. I have some difficulty seeing peoples faces at a distance. I still think and act the same way I always have, still immature and silly which is good for us rock & rollers and oh yeah, I still gots my hair!
I'm really having a great time performing and doing the music which has always been a part of me that I have been doing all my life. I can't imagine not doing this in my life. Without it, I would be living a "fake life". I just wouldn't be me or living the life that's me.
I take a break whenever possible and then I go back to the studio in New York. I always have a lot of recordings ideas that I work on at home that I have to also work on at the New York studio with my suggestions and input on some songs for an album that is going to be released for an up coming artists' album and video. I'm also going to be doing some back ground vocals on the album.
I also went to Mohegan Sun with Joe Walsh from the Eagles band. I planned on going home from a long tiresome studio session in New York but we all got a surprise visit from Joe Walsh from the Eagles band at the studio. He invited us all to go with him out to lunch with his group and then go with him and his group to Mohegan Sun in his tour bus for the VETS Rock Concert that he was playing at. He's a real nice guy. I was able to stop by my house with his tour bus for just a minute to leave off my guitars on the way to the concert.
I had a great time with Joe Walsh at the Rock for Vets Concert. Met a lot of new friends with music connections and got a few invitations. Joe Walsh told me he also produces records and he also knows Ringo Starr and played in his band. We all had a lot of jamming and hang out time after the show and over that whole weekend. I’ve been meeting a lot of musicians since I’ve been at the New York studio but I’m glad I never made it big. I like to be able to go out wherever I want to and play at concerts without all the pressure the big artists have to deal with.
New songs added for 2019 this year shows are an Elvis Medley of songs starting with Elvis 2001 space odyssey introduction then into CC Rider, The Wonder Of You, Blue Suede Shoes,
I Need Your Love Tonight, Don't Be Cruel, Return To Sender, and end with All Shook Up. Also added The Stroll, At The Hop, Somewhere Over The Rainbow, Frank Sinatra's song Love's Been Good To Me and my favorite "Amazing Grace".
Our concert for 2018 video "full 90 minute concert" is posted on my videos page.
I brought my friend Randy with me to the New York studio because they were interested in one of his original songs and they bought the rights to use it from him for a few thousand dollars but he still owns the song. He sure was happy. A few interesting things happening. My original songs have slowly been getting around to other agents in the music industry and I've been getting a few nibbles at a few of my songs. Especially three of them. "The Lonely Xmas Tree," and "Pour Me Another Glass Of Wine" and "It's Just Another Christmas Again" are being checked out by a few country artists. One of them I heard is Willie Nelson.
I have been receiving so many emails. I respond to them personally and I haven't been able to respond to them all yet. I will eventually respond to each one individually. Here are a few responses to some emails questions I keep getting asked. I do prefer my solo performances over my full band performances because there isn’t so much pressure performing solo and they are a lot more personal and have smaller crowds. I also like playing Gretsch vintage guitars. I use a Roland GR30 guitar synthesizer when I perform and I play it live while I play my guitar. Things I like are plain strawberry filled donuts, flea markets, visiting St. Patrick’s Cathedral in New York and I "love" the smell of Tabu perfume from the 1950’s and I can recognize it anywhere if someone is wearing it. I have blue eyes and I’m old enough to know better. My dream night out would me being at my spot with my someone special that is wearing Tabu perfume on a starlit summer night up along the shore with a warm breeze softly blowing, enjoying strawberry doughnuts with a cup of coffee.
I have an agent now I met at the studio in New York. He wants me to do some concerts performing "only my original songs" "Solo". He's working on some upcoming future bookings for me as a warm up performer for bands.
My "Pages Of My Memories "solo"
performances of my original songs only at the Connecticut Post Mall in Milford, Connecticut in June have been great! I met a lot of nice people. I explained a lot about why I wrote my songs before I played each one like "Hey Joe, I'm Joe", "Someone Special", "Summertime In Our Lives", "Lead Me On", "Your Mine", "Flowers And Letters", and "Cos' You Know". They really enjoyed my story on my latest song "Stupid Me", especially when I told them that it was all about stupid me.
Later that night it was such a nice summer night I stopped at "My Spot" where I wrote a lot of my songs. It brought back a lot of old memories and nice times. It was really nice being there again. Just got back from my concert in New York at the Central Park Naumburg Bandshell where I debut my original songs. Met a lot of new friends and artists. I also ran into some old "close" friends. They still call me "Joey". I haven't been called that name for a long time.
11/27/18 Had a great time with Brian Setzer at his show at the Foxwoods Resort Casino on November 23. Glad he gave me the backstage passes.
I have a few Christmas concerts coming up in Dec. then hopefully I'm taking a break for a couple months.
12/3/18 While I was in New York recording this weekend, my agent from the New York studio met me there and gave me 4 free passes to attend the welcoming in of the New Year at a private boarding Cruise party for the Pier Pressure New York New Year’s Eve Fireworks Cruise 2019 with live bands and dancing, food, open bar and the works including Hotel accommodations near the studio for the weekend prior to the Cruise. Supposed to be a big crowd on the Cruise with a lot of musicians and celebrities that are supposed to be attending. Suppose to leave early from the Hotel on New Year’s Eve on a private booked Coach bus to the Cruise boat. Can’t wait to go…and it’s free.
Keep it T & H Best, Joe
1 Enoch 104:12...
Books will be given to the righteous and the wise to produce joy and righteousness and much wisdom.
2 Enoch 33:9...
Give them the books of the handwriting, and they will read them
and will know that I am the creator of all things, and will understand
how there is no other God but me.
2 Enoch 47:1-3...
1 And now, my children, with your minds and your hearts, mark well the words of your father, which all have come to you from the Lord's lips.
2 Take these books of your father's writing and read them.
3 For there are many books, and in them you will learn all the Lord's works, all that has been from the beginning of creation, and will be until the end of time.
2 Enoch 54:1-2...
1 Let these books, which I have given you, be for an inheritance of your peace in that time that you do not understand things.
2 Hand them to all who want them, and instruct them, that they may
see the Lord's very great and marvelous works.
Then Jesus again spoke to them, saying, “I am the Light of the world; he who follows Me will not walk in the darkness, but will have the Light of life.”
At that very time He rejoiced greatly in the Holy Spirit, and said, “I praise You, O Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that You have hidden these things from the wise and intelligent and have revealed them to infants. Yes, Father, for this way was well-pleasing in Your sight.
But Jesus answered, “I tell you, if these become silent, the stones will cry out!”
And after He had said these things, He was lifted up while they were looking on, and a cloud received Him out of their sight. And as they were gazing intently into the sky while He was going, behold, two men in white clothing stood beside them. They also said, “Men of Galilee, why do you stand looking into the sky? This Jesus, who has been taken up from you into heaven, will come in just the same way as you have watched Him go into heaven.”
“I am the Alpha and the Omega,” says the Lord God, “who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty.”
For though the LORD is exalted, Yet He regards the lowly, But the haughty He knows from afar.
“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God".
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All my original songs I have written are about my memories and actual life experiences. The "best" example of this I have is from a past relationship I had below. I have written a lot of songs from this experience in my life and I have mentioned only a few of them.
As I continued down my musical career, I thought it would be a good idea to actually record a couple of my songs and make a record and try to get the radio stations to play my songs.
It was during this time that I met "my gal". It was the "first time" I ever "fell" for someone. We were "SO HAPPY" and we had it all just like "Bogie & Bacall" in the song, "Key Largo". Everything I wanted in my life "was there" and happening for me. My gal loved music just like I did and was a little silly like me which "I thought"
made us the "perfect couple".
I was so wrong. This "happy time" in my life inspired me to write the songs
"Cos' You Know", "My Woman Is Mine" and “Summertime In Our Lives".
Then suddenly in 1979 my Mom started getting sick and wasn't going to get well. Things then started to fall apart for me. No one seemed to notice or care what I was going through including me. I didn't care about anything or anyone anymore. I was very upset and confused and lost direction of my life for a while.
We decided to push forward with my recording plans because my Mom would have wanted that so we went into the recording studio for the very first time and I recorded two of my songs. The first of my original songs I
recorded was recorded in 1981 called “Love’s Little Heartaches” and "It Can Happen Anytime Of The Day". A lot of work, money and effort went into this project with no success. I remember stopping by radio station WICC radio in Connecticut and talking to WICC and being given a very difficult time when we asked if WICC would play my record even though I had performed at numerous fund raising events through the years that their radio station was also a part of. I also remember radio station WDJZ in Connecticut that was run by Frank Derak who did know me from some of the fund raising events I had performed at. He was very kind to me and played my record often on WDJZ radio.
As bad as everything was already going for me at that time in my life because I was worried about my Mom, I was performing at a beauty pageant at the Klein Memorial Auditorium in Connecticut. After I performed I was backstage and I was introduced to a crazy gal who wanted to meet me by her boyfriend who was supposed to marry her that I wish I never met. She became very obsessed with me and started stalking me. I wasn't a big celebrity but I remember reading how Jodie Foster and John Lennon had a stalker following them around. The stalker somehow found out where I lived and started stalking me at my house and at other places. Later when the stalker saw I had a gal she started coming around even more and even stopped at my home very late at night deliberately just to harass me and try to break up my relationship. I thought the best way to deal with the stalker was by talking to her. I spent many hours and nights talking to the
stalker trying to reason with her
"calmly" to leave us alone because she seemed very violent and aggressive and I didn't want to anger her. I wasn't worried about myself but "I was afraid she might harm my gal". She just wouldn't go away! The stalker became very obsessed with me and would sometimes even show up suddenly when I was out with my gal and cause all kinds of problems for me and my gal. I didn't know what to do about the stalker back then to make her go away. I wish I had known about restraining orders back then. If I did I would have had one placed on the stalker and would have had the stalker arrested. My gal was very unfair to me, even though I got no help or advice from my gal on how to handle the stalker, I got "all" the blame for the stalker being there and my gal started to not trust me or believe what I told her about the crazy gal stalker even though I was "always true and honest" to my gal. I wrote the song "Are You Still Mine " for my gal because I then found my gal cheating on me with another man at a diner. I wanted to take her home but she refused to come with me and told me that she was going home with him. You can see that I included what happened at the diner in my song, "Hey Joe, I'm Joe" along with a few other things that happened then under "My Free Original Songs Downloads".
One night the stalkers boyfriend followed her when she stopped at my house and he rang my doorbell. I was so happy! I told him everything and that she was stalking and harassing me and my gal so much that my gal left me. He apologized to me and yelled at her. Then they both left and I never saw her again. Good riddance!
I remember that during that time my Mom was in the hospital because she became very sick and I had a hard time accepting things from my gal that my Mom did for me and I had to slow things down that were happening to me in my life at that time for awhile and I had to "temporarily" put the "special plans" that my gal and I had made on hold for a little while. I guess my gal thought that I wasn't worth the wait or worth her effort because she just left me. I was already very worried about my Mom.
I never let anyone tell me what to do in my life. I always followed my heart because I was the only one that really knew what was really best for me. I knew my gals mom and my gals best friend never really liked me and they wanted me to go away and they took advantage of my situation to do their best to convince my gal who was very upset at that time that I was a bad guy so she would leave me and during that time when I tried to contact my gal to help one tell me what to do in my life. I always followed my heart because I was the only one that really knew what was really best for me. I knew my gals mom never really liked me and wanted me to go away and during that time when I tried to me with all the problems that were happening between us, I sent "lots" of flowers and letters to my gal at her house and got no response back from my gal, instead her mom "actually" drove to my house. Do you think it was to talk to me and find out from me what's going on and try to help me about being depressed about my Mom and advise me on what to do about the stalker? No such luck! Her mom came down to yell at me and told me, "I don't see what my daughter sees in you and don't you call my daughter no more" and a few other things. She must have felt better later finally saying all the things she always wanted to say to me. I said nothing back to her. Then she drove off.
I wonder if my gal ever got my flowers and letters? I wrote a song called "Flowers And Letters". I also wrote a song about my gals mom visit to me at my house and what else "actually " happened on my song "Hey Joe, I'm Joe" under my "Free Original Songs Downloads". It's all "true and honest" just like "all" my songs. After her moms comments to me and visit to my house I was so depressed from what
my gals mom told me that I then started to go out once in a while to a
bar by myself to try to get away from all of this. I didn't like bars and I only went to the bar to drink to try to escape things for awhile. It didn't help at all and I only felt worse because it made me think even more about my problems and I didn't even want to be there but where else could I go? I wrote the song, "Pour Me Another Glass Of Wine" about me going to the bar.
My gal was the only other person in my life and "I counted on her".
Suddenly she wasn't there for me anymore. My gal got "tempted by the apple" and suddenly left me for
someone else and didn't care anymore about me and she wasn't there to help me through my tough time and help figure out what was going on with me and help put things back together for us. I no longer had my gal to rely on and to talk to. I wrote the song, "Running From Love" about the above. This was the worst time period in my life and I was a "wreck". All at the same time my Mom was sick in the hospital, my relationship was being destroyed by a stalker, my gals mom stopped at my house and yelled at me and told me to stay away from her daughter, I caught my gal cheating on me and then my gal left me for another man just when I needed her the most because then my Mom passed on and
I was all alone.
My gal then left the song "Separate Lives" on my answering machine to remind me with a song that she just can’t hold on to "ties" in a relationship. I guess she thought if she left me this song that it would be a "constant" reminder to me whenever I heard it that, "I have no right anymore to her". I should have left the song, "Against All Odds" on her answering machine for her.
To go through life without "ties" is a sad unfulfilled way of going through life with no one you can really count on or grow with. I guess the term “it’s the ties that bind” has no meaning to some people. In a relationship it is the "ties" that bind them together which makes it work and keeps them growing together with all its’ ups and downs and adventures. I believe that your "home", is where your heart is. If your heart isn't where you are, then you ain't home and there's no place like home.
A person can have a house and still never be home.
Besides my Mom, my gal was the "only other one at that time that meant everything to me in my life". I guess I was the only one who felt this way.
I respected her and "it was so hard for me to go away and not see her anymore", but if that's what my gal "really" wanted me to do, I went away.
I wrote the songs, "Lead Me On" and "Your Mine".
Wow! All of a sudden my gal hated me and turned on me. There was another news article that my Mom saved for me. Maybe this was a warning for me. See article below.
There was a little one in my gals family that was "so special to me" just
like a daughter to me, that has now grown up now that I recently got hugs from when I ran into her unexpectedly after many, many, many years. I use to love to take her out on Halloween and carry her through the haunted houses when she was small. She use to get real scared and hold on to me real tight. My gal that left me took "all" this away from me too when she left me. Missed it very much. Soooo nice seeing the little one again and getting those special hugs again! I could see it in her eyes that she missed me too.
I told her I was so sorry I couldn't be there for her as she was growing up.
Looks like I really opened up Pandora’s Box of memories writing about all of the above. No wonder there's so many sad love songs out there. I think the next song I write should be called, "Stupid Me".
Right after my gal left me I was a "real mess" but I pushed myself to perform and started a band called Joe Neumann and the Tornadoes because
I didn't know what else to do with myself. Performing and rehearsing helped keep me from constantly thinking about my gal being gone and her being with another man. My gal liked going to the same concerts that I did and it really messed me up when I saw her there with another man. That was a really bad time for me. I did my best to try to keep myself together and not let her see how upset I really was and how much it really affected
me but I know she knew because she knew me and how much she meant to me but it didn't matter to her. This was too much for me to see and handle so I stopped going to concerts.
I wrote the song, "Shiney Hiney" for my gal about the above.
Then at that time I really "had to" take a break from performing to try
to get myself back together. I was a "total wreck" trying to deal with the fact that she was "really" gone and
she was "really" with another man doing the special things to him that she used to do to me and she "wasn't" going to be coming back home to me. Little did I know that the "worst" news about her was yet to come to me. I read in the newspaper that she was getting married.
I thought that "I was the one" and that she made a mistake leaving me.
I knew she was about to find out that she made the biggest mistake of her life marrying the wrong man which unfortunately affected my life too.
Then who's next? That's why I wrote the verse, "You're gonna run, you're gonna hide, you're gonna feel sick inside.... You're gonna wish that you were home" in my song "My Hands Are Tied" about this.
I never asked anyone about her but friends of mine that know her and people that know her that I never knew before but somehow knew who I was
would tell me that she should be ashamed and embarrassed of herself for what she did to me. I agreed. They also told me that she was in a really big rush with her life to get married to someone because she was getting older and old looking and she was afraid she was going to be an old maid and she was really desperate to find someone that would marry her so she could have some kids and that she just moved on from one man to the next man, etc., and that she was cheating on me and leading a double life with other guys while she was seeing me and also after she left me and that she has a few guys on the side that she always goes to see and to be with. It was sad to hear this and to know that she was sexually
active with other men and was doing special things to them. That is why I wrote the verse, "Look at what they're doin' to you, like a flower in spring they'll just pull you apart until no petals remain" in my song "Running From Love". After hearing this, I felt that she just found some men that would marry her. All the petals are gone. I guess she's with the ones who "really" care about her? More than I did? I don't think so.
I wrote "songs" for her. I'm sure none of her men even wrote a "short poem" for her. I know I did everything I could possibly do at that time but I was so overwhelmed
because my Mom was sick in the hospital, my relationship was being destroyed by a stalker, my gal not trusting me even though I was always "true and honest" to her, my gals mom
stopping at my house and yelling at me and telling me to stay away from her daughter, I caught my gal cheating on me and then she left me for another man just when I needed her the most because my Mom then passed on and I was all alone.. This happened all at once and was just too much for me to handle all by myself with no help... I wrote the song, "Your Mine".